Changes

Since surgery, I have woken up everyday with a smile on my face.  I know this sounds corny, but I have a new lease on life.  I am happy every single day.  Life is great.

I know I have only lost 35 lbs so far, but I can fit into some clothes I couldn't fit into before, I can wear my wedding ring, and I only woke up twice last night.  I was waking up every hour on the hour before surgery, because of my sleep apnea.  I am in really good spirits.  I guess because I see so many changes in my life.

I am worried about my wife.  She started her liquid diet yesterday, and it was not good.  While I was going through my liquid diet, she would say how easy it was, and how she would not have a problem with it.  Well she is having many problems.  Think about not eating anything for two weeks.  It is rough.  You have your full stomach and are hungry all the time.  I got through it by eating popcorn as my snack.  Still it was a rough one.  I am supporting her, and trying not to say "I told you so" too much.

Yesterday, we went to Healthy Kids for Brenden.  Brenden is overweight, because he learned all the bad habits about eating from us.  Now that things have changed 100%, he will, undoubtably, lose weight right along with us.  I told Brenden, yesterday, that I wanted the program to be a success, and I would do anything to make sure it is.  This is a big lifestyle change for all of us.

Amazingly, I am not hungry at all.  I have to force myself to eat.  I eat because it is time to eat.  I take my protein because it is time to take protein.  I can only eat 1.5 ozs of food per meal right now, and the food has to be pureed. 

There are so many things to count.  I have to count my protien intake, my liquid consumption, my vitamin intake.  And I have to make sure I get the right amounts each day.  That is a little hard, but I have to do it.

My post op appointment is Thursday, and Belsis' pre op is the same day.  I am going to support her just like she supported me.  She says she is nervous about the appointment.  I know how she feels.  I was very nervous about my pre op.  You don't want anything to delay your surgery.  I felt so much better after that appointment.  The surgery was paid for, and all I had to do was wait.