Well, my first Thanksgiving Post Op, was yesterday. I won't say that I was nervous, about the day going in, but I will say I was a bit worried. Thanksgiving is an obese person's dream. You eat all day, take a nap, sit around and watch football, and eat some more. The average Thanksgiving meal is 2,000 calories. This was, also, my first Thanksgiving without my mother. We went to her house, each Thanksgiving, and ate and ate. We would then bring leftovers home and eat some more. Thanksgiving, is also, my favorite holiday. So I had somethings working against me.
Because of all of this, I decided to have a theme for my Thanksgiving this year. I called it: New Traditions. Because of our surgery, we could no longer make the day about the meal. Instead, I wanted to make it about being with family and friends. We invited, my inlaws, my sister, and my friend that had the same exact surgery as I had, on the same exact day. He and I are surgery twins, and have gotten really close because of that. I told everyone to come over at 9:00 am, and we would cook together, and watch the parade, and catch up. I really needed this, for myself. I told everyone, how imporant this was to me.
Well 9:00 am came, and no one was here. My wife, and kids, were running around, getting ready, and I was stuck watching the parade, which I don't really like, by myself. It got to be 10:00 am and I was all alone, and I started to get a little depressed. I had told everyone, how imporant this was to me, and it seemed like no one cared. I got up, and went to my room, and laid down for a nap. I had given up on the day, and I was very frustrated, and just thought that no one cared about what I was trying to do. My wife, and kids sensed that there was something wrong, and each kid came in the room, and asked me to come back down stairs. I told them I was napping. I had just given up.
While, I was in my room, my friend called, and said he had over slept, and would be over by 11:00 am. My sister called, and said she would be late. My inlaws, were late as well. I woke up at about 10:45, and came back down stairs. I was in a bad mood, but I knew I had to get dinner done. So, I went into the kitchen, and started getting ready to make the stuffing. My wife came in, and asked to help. I was short with her, and didn't want to talk. I began making the stuffing, and she told me to snap out of it. As I was making the rest of the food, I decided, that, obviously, the day was not supposed to go the way I planned, so, I just rolled with the punches.
Finally, my inlaws, were the first to arrive. They came at about 11:10 am or so. So I began to get a little festive, and my mood started to improve. I got a text from my sister at 11:35 that said she was leaving her house. I got a call from my friend, and he said he was on his way, but was lost. So I directed him to the house. He got here at about 11:45, and my mood immediately got better. I introduced him around, and we sat and chatted for a bit. Finally, my sister arrived, and we were all ready to eat, and enjoy the day.
Normally, we would spend $250.00 on our big meal for the year. This year, we spent $35.00. We bought the smallest turkey, we bought some stuffing, mashed potatoes, and some green beans. I made, about 1/3 of what I would normally make for our dinner. We stayed away, from buying things like pie, and mac & cheese, which is a family tradition. So we made our plates, and I put very little food on it. I put a small piece of turkey, half a spoonful of stuffing, and a spoonful of mashed potatoes. My wife, did the same. This was the first time I had seen my friend eat, and I was a bit shocked, by how much food he served himself. I thought in the back of my mind, that there was no way he would finish his plate. He made a comment, about how little food, my wife and I served ourselves. Then he was shocked, when I said I wouldn't be able to finish it.
So we sat around, and ate our dinner. We chatted about what was going on, and how our lives have changed this year. How this was the best year of our lives. It takes me a long time to eat, about 20 mins or so, so we chatted about everything under the sun. I didn't finish what was on my plate, and I remained at the table talking with my friend, and my wife. I was a little shocked, that my friend finished his plate, and that he ate a lot quicker than I did. I learned something a long time ago. When someone has this surgery, it is their journey, and not mine. Everyone is different, and just because I do something, doesn't mean that everyone else, can or will do it. For me, I only eat until I feel something in my pouch, and then I stop. I never get the feeling of being full, because I don't like that feeling, and I am afraid that I will stretch my pouch. The doctor said that, that is what you are supposed to do, so that is what I do.
I left the table, and sat down to watch some football. I didn't really watch the game, which is odd for me, I was more interested in the conversation that was going on around me. I chatted with my sister, about what was going on in her life. She has not had the same great year that I have had, but all in all, her year could of been worse. I chatted with my friend about his life, and I was really enjoying our conversation. My wife came in, and joined us, and we all talked and talked. I couldn't tell you what the final score of the game was, because I was so engaged in what was going on around me.
My wife, said that I was boring everyone with football, so instead of watching the second game, we watched Planes, Trains, and Automobiles. I had only seen bits and pieces of that movies, so I was game for that. I was afraid, that when the movie came on, that we would be focused on that and not have any conversation.
During the movie, my friend fell asleep, and my wife talked with her parents. Her parents, do not speak a lot of English, so she was translating the movie to them. Towards the end of the movie, my friend woke up, and decided to leave. We gave him some leftovers to take home, and I walked him out. I came back in, and finished the movie. After the movie was over, we all sat down, for dinner. We ate, and then, my wife and her mom cleaned up. My inlaws left around 7:30 pm or so, and my wife and I watch a little TV and I went to bed.
Although, my day did not start as planned, we accomplished what we set out to do. We made the day about spending time with our family, and not the meal. Food did not dominate the day. I didn't eat myself silly, or take a nap. All in all a good day, and the start of a new tradition.
I was excited for Thanksgiving weekend, for many reasons. Firstly, Thanksgiving itsself, and also, my wife and I are leaving today to spend the three day weekend ALL BY OURSELVES!!! We have not spent a weekend alone, in over 4 years. we really need this time, to rejuvinate our relationship.
Before surgery, my wife and my relationship was awful. Had we done nothing about it, we would probably be on the verge of divorce right now. Because of our weight, and our laziness, we had fallen out of love with each other, and were together out of habit. We always loved each other, mind you, but the spark was gone, and we spent a majority of our time, making promises to each other, that were never kept, and fighting.
Since our surgery, we have completely changed as people. We make promises, and keep them. We keep each other on track, and I have fallen back in love with my wife. I look forward to coming home each day, and most of the time, we don't watch TV, anymore, we sit and chat about things. We do not bring up the past, that is a rule. We talk about what is currently going on, and give each other advice on how to make things better in our lives. This is fresh start with our weight loss and our lives. I am veiwing this as a fresh start to our relationship as well. I have been with my wife for 15 years, and, today, I feel like a 15 year old boy when I am with her.
I am really looking forward to this weekend!!!
Friday, November 26, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Real Concerns
I am not going to say that I am not happy about losing 107 lbs in 12 weeks. I am exstatic about it. I am really happy, and it keeps me motivated and happy. I can't believe I have lost so much weight in a very short period of time. I am not a patient person at all, so this has really been motivating and exceiting to me. However, I am worried about something.
I surround myself, with people that have had Bariatric Surgery. I have watched people on You Tube, that have had surgery. I have watched a lot of people's videos, and I have done a lot of research. I have NEVER EVER come accross someone that has lost as much weight as I have, in the short amount of time that I have. I am not questioning it, mind you, but I am a little concerned that I am losing weight too fast. I have gone over everything that I am doing, and I am following the rules. I am taking the right amount of protein per day, so I am not losing muscle. I am eating about 3 ozs of food per meal, which is normal. I am getting all of my vitamins, daily. I am walking every weekday morning, for at least a mile or more. I am being active, and living a more active lifestyle. I am not eating anything that I shouldn't be eating. In short, I am good with structure, and routine, and I am following it exactly. I spent a lot of money on this surgery, and I don't want to screw it up. I am just concerned that I am losing weight too fast. In my research, I have found that it takes most people, at least six months to lose 100 lbs. It has taken me 11 weeks. When I had my pre op, I remember them testing my metobolism, and I burned 4,000 calories a day, doing nothing. Right now I am taking in about 900 - 1,000 calories per day, so maybe that is the reason I am losing so fast. Again, I am not questioning it, I am just a little concerned sometimes. I weigh myself weekly, and I have gotten used to such big numbers, that I get a little frustrated on a week where I have lost like 3 - 4 lbs. Then the following week, I make up with for it with another big loss.
Another thing I thought of was, what if I don't stop losing weight, when I feel I have reached my goal? I think a good weight for me is 180 - 190. What if I continue losing, after that goal has been met? I know, it will eventually stop, but I dont want to be rail thin. I mean, that would be the opposite problem, of what I had before. I have always been a big, strong guy, and I like that about myself, so being rail thin, would bother me. It isn't like there would be anything I could do about being so thin. I mean I couldn't just eat more, and gain weight. I guess I would just have to live with it. I guess I will cross that bridge when it comes.
I want to say to anyone that is reading this, that is considering weight loss surgery. My insurance would not cover my surgery. I spent $17,900.00, and my wife spent the same. We financed $25,800.00 of the total. I want to tell you that we struggle financially to pay this debt off every month. We have given up a lot of things that we used to do. We have given up Christmas, Valentine's Day, Birthdays, Mother's Day, Father's Day, and pretty much, every gift giving event. We only buy presents for our kids, and we give them a cap of about $100.00, per event. We have scaled back on everything in our house that is not absolutely an essential. We do not take family vacations, and when we do go out, we do things for free, or close to free. We have completely changed our lifestyle. We used to spend a lot of money on things, but we are no longer able to do that. If we go out to dinner, or spend money on something we go out to do, we veiw that as a treat., and it happens MAYBE once a month. I drive an 8 year old car, and it has to last another 3 years. We don't buy things that we want, only things that we absolutely need.
The point of me telling you all of that, is that I have NO REGRETS! I would do it again tomorrow. This surgery SAVED my life, and it gave me my life back. It was the BEST decision that I ever made. It is the BEST money that I have ever spent. If you are over weight, and you have hit rock bottom, and you don't know what to do, I would suggest this surgery to you. If your insurance will not pay for it, finance it. If you can not get financing, figure out a way to pay for it. You will NOT regret it. I promise you that.
I surround myself, with people that have had Bariatric Surgery. I have watched people on You Tube, that have had surgery. I have watched a lot of people's videos, and I have done a lot of research. I have NEVER EVER come accross someone that has lost as much weight as I have, in the short amount of time that I have. I am not questioning it, mind you, but I am a little concerned that I am losing weight too fast. I have gone over everything that I am doing, and I am following the rules. I am taking the right amount of protein per day, so I am not losing muscle. I am eating about 3 ozs of food per meal, which is normal. I am getting all of my vitamins, daily. I am walking every weekday morning, for at least a mile or more. I am being active, and living a more active lifestyle. I am not eating anything that I shouldn't be eating. In short, I am good with structure, and routine, and I am following it exactly. I spent a lot of money on this surgery, and I don't want to screw it up. I am just concerned that I am losing weight too fast. In my research, I have found that it takes most people, at least six months to lose 100 lbs. It has taken me 11 weeks. When I had my pre op, I remember them testing my metobolism, and I burned 4,000 calories a day, doing nothing. Right now I am taking in about 900 - 1,000 calories per day, so maybe that is the reason I am losing so fast. Again, I am not questioning it, I am just a little concerned sometimes. I weigh myself weekly, and I have gotten used to such big numbers, that I get a little frustrated on a week where I have lost like 3 - 4 lbs. Then the following week, I make up with for it with another big loss.
Another thing I thought of was, what if I don't stop losing weight, when I feel I have reached my goal? I think a good weight for me is 180 - 190. What if I continue losing, after that goal has been met? I know, it will eventually stop, but I dont want to be rail thin. I mean, that would be the opposite problem, of what I had before. I have always been a big, strong guy, and I like that about myself, so being rail thin, would bother me. It isn't like there would be anything I could do about being so thin. I mean I couldn't just eat more, and gain weight. I guess I would just have to live with it. I guess I will cross that bridge when it comes.
I want to say to anyone that is reading this, that is considering weight loss surgery. My insurance would not cover my surgery. I spent $17,900.00, and my wife spent the same. We financed $25,800.00 of the total. I want to tell you that we struggle financially to pay this debt off every month. We have given up a lot of things that we used to do. We have given up Christmas, Valentine's Day, Birthdays, Mother's Day, Father's Day, and pretty much, every gift giving event. We only buy presents for our kids, and we give them a cap of about $100.00, per event. We have scaled back on everything in our house that is not absolutely an essential. We do not take family vacations, and when we do go out, we do things for free, or close to free. We have completely changed our lifestyle. We used to spend a lot of money on things, but we are no longer able to do that. If we go out to dinner, or spend money on something we go out to do, we veiw that as a treat., and it happens MAYBE once a month. I drive an 8 year old car, and it has to last another 3 years. We don't buy things that we want, only things that we absolutely need.
The point of me telling you all of that, is that I have NO REGRETS! I would do it again tomorrow. This surgery SAVED my life, and it gave me my life back. It was the BEST decision that I ever made. It is the BEST money that I have ever spent. If you are over weight, and you have hit rock bottom, and you don't know what to do, I would suggest this surgery to you. If your insurance will not pay for it, finance it. If you can not get financing, figure out a way to pay for it. You will NOT regret it. I promise you that.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Some Questions
I have previously blogged about how much my life has changed. I have told you how my attitude has changed, and all of the things that I am doing to better myself, and reach my full potential. I am a work in progress, and I feel I am getting to where I want to be, each and every day. However somethings are going on, that I can't explain.
First and formost, I have a new mantra that I have to repeat to myself, daily, sometimes hourly. If I don't do this I will go insane. My mantra is: "No one is feeling what I am feeling. I need to be patient." Sometimes, well most of the time, I get frustrated with other people, because they do not have the zest that I have. They can not keep up with me, and I want them to be on the same page that I am. This is a big change for me, and most people are not used to me yet, or are in a wait and see mode. It frustrates me, because I want everyone to change right a long with me, and I have to realize that no one is experiencing what I am. People need to get used to me. I need to give people time to catch up to what I am doing. I am moving at 1,000 miles per second, and no one can keep up. Sometimes they try, but they can't. I need to repeat to myself my mantra or I get frustrated.
Secondly, I have had a few amazing things happen to me. With this new found person I have become, I have been changing my approach to EVERYTHING in my life. With work, I am out there doing new things, I am doing things that should of always been done. With my personal life, I am changing my approach, and mending relationships with my family, that have been damaged in the past. I am putting 110% effort into these new things that I am doing. Problem is, that, sometimes, if I don't see some results, I begin to question myself. I begin to get frustrated, and have been on the brink of quitting doing what I am doing. EVERYTIME, I have been ready to throw in the towel, something AMAZING has happened. Right at that second, when I feel all hope is lost, I get a reminder from someone or something. I get an sign, as I like to call it. This has happened to me twice, already, and the sign has told me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep plugging along. NEVER QUIT!!! I have questioned, why this is happening to me, and I have come to a realization. I believe that God is speaking to me. He sees that I am losing hope, and he tells me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep moving forward. He has spoken to me, and I am listening. Perhaps, he has done that all along, and I am just now, listening to what he is saying to me. One thing is for certain: I am tuned in to what he has to say.
I am the luckiest person in the world, and whenever I get frustrated, I get what I need to move forward.
First and formost, I have a new mantra that I have to repeat to myself, daily, sometimes hourly. If I don't do this I will go insane. My mantra is: "No one is feeling what I am feeling. I need to be patient." Sometimes, well most of the time, I get frustrated with other people, because they do not have the zest that I have. They can not keep up with me, and I want them to be on the same page that I am. This is a big change for me, and most people are not used to me yet, or are in a wait and see mode. It frustrates me, because I want everyone to change right a long with me, and I have to realize that no one is experiencing what I am. People need to get used to me. I need to give people time to catch up to what I am doing. I am moving at 1,000 miles per second, and no one can keep up. Sometimes they try, but they can't. I need to repeat to myself my mantra or I get frustrated.
Secondly, I have had a few amazing things happen to me. With this new found person I have become, I have been changing my approach to EVERYTHING in my life. With work, I am out there doing new things, I am doing things that should of always been done. With my personal life, I am changing my approach, and mending relationships with my family, that have been damaged in the past. I am putting 110% effort into these new things that I am doing. Problem is, that, sometimes, if I don't see some results, I begin to question myself. I begin to get frustrated, and have been on the brink of quitting doing what I am doing. EVERYTIME, I have been ready to throw in the towel, something AMAZING has happened. Right at that second, when I feel all hope is lost, I get a reminder from someone or something. I get an sign, as I like to call it. This has happened to me twice, already, and the sign has told me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep plugging along. NEVER QUIT!!! I have questioned, why this is happening to me, and I have come to a realization. I believe that God is speaking to me. He sees that I am losing hope, and he tells me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep moving forward. He has spoken to me, and I am listening. Perhaps, he has done that all along, and I am just now, listening to what he is saying to me. One thing is for certain: I am tuned in to what he has to say.
I am the luckiest person in the world, and whenever I get frustrated, I get what I need to move forward.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
My Life Has COMPLETELY Changed
I am 11 weeks Post Op. I have lost 104 pounds. Not only has my appearance, drastically changed, but EVERYTHING about me has changed.
There is a song that says: "It's so lonely, when you don't even know yourself." That is very true. I lived a very lonely life 11 weeks ago. I didn't have any friends, and I always wondered why. I thought that I was a good friend, and fun to be around. Looking back on it, I was a miserable, depressed person, and no wonder, no one wanted to be around me. I was quiet, never spoke my mind, and was a major downer. I have gotten to know myself, and the person I am, today is 100% better than where I was a short time ago. I am not 100% where I want to be yet, but I am getting there.
I have a zest for life now. I enjoy waking up, and I am always ready to take on the day. When I wake up, I look at my calendar and see what I have planned for the day. I plan my day accordingly. I am a morning person, and I get more done, before 7:00 am, then most people get done all day. I have learned, that I love waking up.
I am an outgoing person, and I strike up conversations, with most anyone. It is mostly chit chat, and I find that, it is fun to get to know people, and really listen to what they have to say. I didn't used to do that. I was never shy, but I was mostly, introverted. I have really come out of my shell.
My wife says that I am full of confidence, and you can tell that when you speak to me. She says I am not 100%, but you can tell that I am excited, about what I am talking about, and my confidence shows. I was never that way in my life.
I enjoy meeting new people, and I love being in a situation, where I can talk to people. I really like meeting people that have been through Bariatric Surgery, or are considering doing it. It is my favorite thing to talk about. I can talk until I am blue in the face to someone, and explain things to people that have not had surgery, BUT NO ONE truly understands, unless they have been through it. I like to surround myself with those people, because, firstly, they keep me on track. Talking with them and hearing their experience, really helps, and motivates me. Secondly, you never know when you will be in a situation, and they will know the answer. Thirdly, for the most part, they are good people, and you have something, major, in common with them. It is sort of like having an army buddy. You were in the trenches with that person, and only they understand certain things.
I have a truly positive attitude. I am enthusiastic about EVERYTHING I have going on. I have noticed that my enthusiasm, and zest for life, is beginning to rub off on people around me. They are coming at me, with the same energy, that I have. They are starting to realize that this is who I am, and I am not changing.
I guess it is true: For the most part, you really do get back, what you put out there.
There is a song that says: "It's so lonely, when you don't even know yourself." That is very true. I lived a very lonely life 11 weeks ago. I didn't have any friends, and I always wondered why. I thought that I was a good friend, and fun to be around. Looking back on it, I was a miserable, depressed person, and no wonder, no one wanted to be around me. I was quiet, never spoke my mind, and was a major downer. I have gotten to know myself, and the person I am, today is 100% better than where I was a short time ago. I am not 100% where I want to be yet, but I am getting there.
I have a zest for life now. I enjoy waking up, and I am always ready to take on the day. When I wake up, I look at my calendar and see what I have planned for the day. I plan my day accordingly. I am a morning person, and I get more done, before 7:00 am, then most people get done all day. I have learned, that I love waking up.
I am an outgoing person, and I strike up conversations, with most anyone. It is mostly chit chat, and I find that, it is fun to get to know people, and really listen to what they have to say. I didn't used to do that. I was never shy, but I was mostly, introverted. I have really come out of my shell.
My wife says that I am full of confidence, and you can tell that when you speak to me. She says I am not 100%, but you can tell that I am excited, about what I am talking about, and my confidence shows. I was never that way in my life.
I enjoy meeting new people, and I love being in a situation, where I can talk to people. I really like meeting people that have been through Bariatric Surgery, or are considering doing it. It is my favorite thing to talk about. I can talk until I am blue in the face to someone, and explain things to people that have not had surgery, BUT NO ONE truly understands, unless they have been through it. I like to surround myself with those people, because, firstly, they keep me on track. Talking with them and hearing their experience, really helps, and motivates me. Secondly, you never know when you will be in a situation, and they will know the answer. Thirdly, for the most part, they are good people, and you have something, major, in common with them. It is sort of like having an army buddy. You were in the trenches with that person, and only they understand certain things.
I have a truly positive attitude. I am enthusiastic about EVERYTHING I have going on. I have noticed that my enthusiasm, and zest for life, is beginning to rub off on people around me. They are coming at me, with the same energy, that I have. They are starting to realize that this is who I am, and I am not changing.
I guess it is true: For the most part, you really do get back, what you put out there.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Finally did it
I am 11 weeks Post Op tomorrow, and I have lost 104 pounds!!!!! I am SO excited. I feel so much better. Last week, I was upset, because I had only lost 4 pounds. This week I was so excited to see I broke the Century Mark.
I want to be honest about something for a second. When I was bigger, I let a lot of things go in my life. Hell, I let EVERYTHING go. I lost a step, I lost my self confidence, I lost my self esteem, I was a miserable person, and I made everyone around me miserable. I never wanted to leave the house, even to go to work. I was on the brink of divorce, and was just in a bad situation.
I am not in touch with the person I was 11 weeks ago. I don't even know that person anymore. I am completely different. I wake up in the morning, and I am excited to take on the day. I don't want to lay around the house anymore, and sleep. I have more confidence, and a higher self esteem, then I have EVER had in my life. My relationship my wife, my kids, my co workers, and friends, has improved 100%. When not busy, I find things to keep myself busy. I am excited about my life now.
Because of this BIG change in myself, in such a short time, people are waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have a new philosophy, that I have instituted. Today, I am going to be the best person I can be. I can't change what happened yesterday, and I can't predict what will happen tomorrow. Today, is the only thing that is real to me. As long as I handle what is going on today, I am fine. Of course, I have goals, and what I do is concentrate on achieving those goals, or moving closer to them today. That has worked for me.
I have noticed that my new attitude is infectious. People around me, are starting to keep up with me. They are, becoming more and more, like me. I am excited about this new attitude, and for today, it is energizing me!!!!
I want to be honest about something for a second. When I was bigger, I let a lot of things go in my life. Hell, I let EVERYTHING go. I lost a step, I lost my self confidence, I lost my self esteem, I was a miserable person, and I made everyone around me miserable. I never wanted to leave the house, even to go to work. I was on the brink of divorce, and was just in a bad situation.
I am not in touch with the person I was 11 weeks ago. I don't even know that person anymore. I am completely different. I wake up in the morning, and I am excited to take on the day. I don't want to lay around the house anymore, and sleep. I have more confidence, and a higher self esteem, then I have EVER had in my life. My relationship my wife, my kids, my co workers, and friends, has improved 100%. When not busy, I find things to keep myself busy. I am excited about my life now.
Because of this BIG change in myself, in such a short time, people are waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have a new philosophy, that I have instituted. Today, I am going to be the best person I can be. I can't change what happened yesterday, and I can't predict what will happen tomorrow. Today, is the only thing that is real to me. As long as I handle what is going on today, I am fine. Of course, I have goals, and what I do is concentrate on achieving those goals, or moving closer to them today. That has worked for me.
I have noticed that my new attitude is infectious. People around me, are starting to keep up with me. They are, becoming more and more, like me. I am excited about this new attitude, and for today, it is energizing me!!!!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Misconceptions, and Myths
I am open and honest to everyone about my surgery. I tell everyone that asks, how I lost my weight. I am proud of it, and it is a big part of my life. In doing that, I have run into, a lot of ignorance about Bariatric Surgery.
Some people have told me, that I have taken the easy way out, and all I had to do was quit eating so much and exercise. First of all, obesity is a disease. A person, is genetically, predisposed to that disease. It is like an alcholic. There is no cure for obesity. I have struggled with it my whole life, and I will struggle with it the rest of my life.
Secondly, I can gain weight back, if I don't watch what I am doing, and I don't follow the rules. There are many people, that I have encountered, that have had WLS, and they have gained their weight back after a few years. Those are the people, that did not follow the rules. It is possible, for your pouch to stretch, and you will be able to eat more and more food. In short, you can't suck down cheeseburgers, and fries, and expect to maintain your weight. It just won't happen.
Part of my new lifestyle, is stopping bad habits. Although I am not hungry, I still crave food that is bad for me. I must fight the urge to eat bad foods. Now this has gotten better over time, but it is still there. I have to eat until I feel something, and stop. I can still stuff myself, if I choose, but I choose not to. I have to exercise, everyday. In short, this is no day at the beach, and I have to work at it. I just wish people would understand that.
Some people have told me, that I have taken the easy way out, and all I had to do was quit eating so much and exercise. First of all, obesity is a disease. A person, is genetically, predisposed to that disease. It is like an alcholic. There is no cure for obesity. I have struggled with it my whole life, and I will struggle with it the rest of my life.
Secondly, I can gain weight back, if I don't watch what I am doing, and I don't follow the rules. There are many people, that I have encountered, that have had WLS, and they have gained their weight back after a few years. Those are the people, that did not follow the rules. It is possible, for your pouch to stretch, and you will be able to eat more and more food. In short, you can't suck down cheeseburgers, and fries, and expect to maintain your weight. It just won't happen.
Part of my new lifestyle, is stopping bad habits. Although I am not hungry, I still crave food that is bad for me. I must fight the urge to eat bad foods. Now this has gotten better over time, but it is still there. I have to eat until I feel something, and stop. I can still stuff myself, if I choose, but I choose not to. I have to exercise, everyday. In short, this is no day at the beach, and I have to work at it. I just wish people would understand that.
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