Some Questions

I have previously blogged about how much my life has changed.  I have told you how my attitude has changed, and all of the things that I am doing to better myself, and reach my full potential.  I am a work in progress, and I feel I am getting to where I want to be, each and every day.  However somethings are going on, that I can't explain.

First and formost, I have a new mantra that I have to repeat to myself, daily, sometimes hourly.  If I don't do this I will go insane.  My mantra is: "No one is feeling what I am feeling.  I need to be patient."  Sometimes, well most of the time, I get frustrated with other people, because they do not have the zest that I have.  They can not keep up with me, and I want them to be on the same page that I am.  This is a big change for me, and most people are not used to me yet, or are in a wait and see mode.  It frustrates me, because I want everyone to change right a long with me, and I have to realize that no one is experiencing what I am.  People need to get used to me.  I need to give people time to catch up to what I am doing.  I am moving at 1,000 miles per second, and no one can keep up.  Sometimes they try, but they can't.  I need to repeat to myself my mantra or I get frustrated.

Secondly, I have had a few amazing things happen to me.  With this new found person I have become, I have been changing my approach to EVERYTHING in my life.  With work, I am out there doing new things, I am doing things that should of always been done.  With my personal life, I am changing my approach, and mending relationships with my family, that have been damaged in the past.  I am putting 110% effort into these new things that I am doing.  Problem is, that, sometimes, if I don't see some results, I begin to question myself.  I begin to get frustrated, and have been on the brink of quitting doing what I am doing.  EVERYTIME, I have been ready to throw in the towel, something AMAZING has happened.  Right at that second, when I feel all hope is lost, I get a reminder from someone or something.  I get an sign, as I like to call it.  This has happened to me twice, already, and the sign has told me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep plugging along.  NEVER QUIT!!!  I have questioned, why this is happening to me, and I have come to a realization.  I believe that God is speaking to me.  He sees that I am losing hope, and he tells me that I am doing the right thing, and to keep moving forward.  He has spoken to me, and I am listening.  Perhaps, he has done that all along, and I am just now, listening to what he is saying to me.  One thing is for certain:  I am tuned in to what he has to say.

I am the luckiest person in the world, and whenever I get frustrated, I get what I need to move forward.